Never Give Up

After the kids went to bed last night, I logged onto Netflix to watch David Letterman interviewed Jay Z. The last conversation, in which the two men opened up about their infidelity, struck a chord with me—not because they cheated on their wives, but because they did not give up on their marriage.

I can proudly say that I have not cheated on my wife and never will as long as we stay together. I also will not give up on our marriage no matter how difficult the circumstance will be. Living with someone for ten years is a long time. Of course, we have conflicts and challenges, but I will always love her. Loving another person is hard, especially when you don’t feel the reciprocation. I don’t blame her.

Ten years in our relationship seem to wear her down. Seeing her miserable and taciturn made me wonder why she still stuck with me all these years. The obvious reason has to be the kids. Without the boys, I don’t know if she would still be here with me.

Next month will mark our 10th anniversary. It is one of my proudest and greatest accomplishments in life. I could not have asked for a better partner. She is the love of my life. If it is up to me, I will be with her for the rest of my life; however, I cannot make that commitment by myself. I don’t know if things will ever change; therefore, I am grateful for every single day that she is still with me. I am not hoping for the next 10, 20, or 30 years together. I just want to wake up the next day knowing I still have a wonderful family. As long as we stayed committed, I will never give up.