This morning I got upset at my wife for leaving the minivan running for sixteen hours. I meant to remind her, but I vent at her instead. I drove to work feeling terrible. Why did I let such a stupid little thing got to me? I immediately apologized when I arrived at work.
In the past few months, I noticed a change in me. I get irritated easily about every little thing and it is fucking up my head. How have I become this way? Stress? Anxiety? Lack of sleep? I am not making any excuse for myself and my behavior. I need to change. I need to refocus my priorities. Letting go of all the things that are out of my control.
Two weeks ago while on vacation, I came across the book that could help me fight my demon. I picked up Richard Carlson’s Don’t Sweat the Small Stuff… and it’s all small stuff out of a bargain bin. The book has 100 advices and each one makes a good blog post, which is perfect for quick reads. The advices that speak to me include: “Ask yourself the Question, ‘Will This Matter a Year From Now?’,” “Surrender to the Fact that Life Isn’t Fair,” “Resist the Urge to Criticize,” “Think of What You Have Instead of What You Want,” “Practice Ignoring Your Negative Thoughts,” and “Be Happy Where You Are.”
Like what I had done this morning, I am applying these advices into my life. I am working out my flaws, emotions, and irritations. I can do it if I can let go off the little things that do nothing good for me except driving me crazy.