I haven’t written much about the boys lately. They are stressing the life out of me. When we were on vacation last week, I spent most of my waking hours watching and yelling at the two older boys.
Đán, in particular, is going through his horrifying-four stage. He breaks down and screams when he doesn’t get the iPad. He forces us to limit his time even more. I am fine with him playing on the iPad. I myself use my iPhone for reading or my laptop to do my personal projects. It’s an issue when he could not turn it off when we asked him to. He goes into this addictive mood.
On the bright side, he has some great sense of humor. Last Tuesday, I took him back to daycare after a week-long vacation. The first thing he told me was, “Daddy, there’s no [parking] space. Let’s go back home.” Last night, I gave him a pat on his butt for taking a bath and putting on his clothes all by himself. He turned around and said, “Daddy, I am going to bring you to justice.” Đạo was like, “Where did you learn that from?”
Speaking of Đạo, he, too, addicted to the iPad, but he understands the consequences if he acted up when we asked him to turn it off. Most of the time he would listen. He likes to talk a lot of crap; therefore, he always gets into a fight with Đán. He doesn’t hit his brother, but his brother keeps throw punches at him and that drives me crazy. Đạo has some sharing issues, but he is a sweet brother, especially to Xuân.
Speaking of Xuân, he is now seven months. He is the cutest. He loves to eat; therefore, feeding him is a joy. I love spending time putting food in his mouth. I also enjoy strolling or jogging with him, which I haven’t done as much as I would like to. The stresses weakened my motivation. I am trying hard to get everything out of my head. I don’t know why I let things that I cannot control and little things that are unnecessary get to me. I am working on refocusing my attention on things that matter to me the most and fuck everything else. I can do it. I know I can and I will.