What a Fucking Week

I had been sick since Monday and had to take off work pretty much the whole week. First it started with a sore throat, then a migraine, then a lot of coughing, like a dog. With all the medications I was taking hoping for a quick recovery, I felt miserable. I was lying in bed, listening to music, and reading. I finished writing a personal piece that I needed to get off my chest for a long time. I felt much lighter afterward.

As I become older, I don’t mind reducing unnecessary dramas in my life. I used to give a fuck. Now I give a fuckless. I don’t need all the needless stress. When I was young, I was too emotional. I worried too much about what others think of me. I was having a conversation with one of my sons as he’s going through this stage as well. I feel him, but it is also frustrating that he refuses to take my advice. I have been there and done that. The quicker he gets over what others think of him, the better his life will be.

There is no point trying to hide his flaws or avoid uncomfortable circumstances. He needs to learn to be comfortable with himself, to recognize his talents, and to focus on the positives instead of the negatives. No one’s perfect. I even gave him an example of myself. I am full of flaws. I don’t hide my bald head. I am not ashamed of my yellow teeth. I am not running away from my erratic emotions. I speak my mind and write what is in my head. If people can’t accept me for who I am, then fuck them.

Until he can embrace himself and appreciate his uniqueness, he will continue to be miserable. He just can’t sit around and feel bad for his sorry-ass. He needs to take care of himself first. He can do anything when he puts his mind to it. He has the talents, but he needs to put in the work. Unlike him, I don’t have the talents, but I have a relentless drive to accomplish my goal. Whatever I set out to do something that I am passionate about, whether designing, skiing, snowboarding, skating, writing, I will keep doing it until I accomplish something. I am in my mid fucking forty and I am still thriving. He has plenty of opportunities and he just needs to take advantage of them.